As much as we would like to believe at some point we will reach a point where all is perfect and right and the troubles, conflicts, and difficulties will cease forever... this is a delusion. Life is about learning, about growing... and the only way to do that is through overcoming the obstacles thrown your way. Those of us who beg for learning, who ache for enlightenment... we must expect more difficulties than anyone else... For we have asked the universe to teach us and the greatest strengths and lessons come in the most difficult packages... and again and again our weakenesses will be tested... until they cease to exist.
Life will hum along at a beautiful pace but if we overlook the necessary details to reach our goals, if we compromise our integrity to attain something, do not doubt you are likely only the path to finding yourself circling the abyss of chaos. Suddenly in our impatience or sometimes blindness we have gone from the heights to the deep lows of the storm. Now understand the storm is a necessary thing... for when surrounded by chaos there is nothing that can be done but to eliminate the uneccessary, to clear your life of things that are not conducive to your ascent, and then once stripped bare, you can see clearly your mishaps and begin to clean up and re-build with new levels of clarity and more space in your life to bring in better things that do not lead to such chaos...
So when you find yourself in the midst of the storm... brace yourself stay focussed... pull out the machete cut down the weeds and reeds in your path... build yourself some shelter... and start clearing up the debri around you which is contributing. From this space and only this space can you truly assess your next direction. The path you truly want to be on. And if you have learned... you have also learned how not to find yourself in this position in this manner again. If you have not learned be prepared to recognize the pattern which will present itself again and again until you get it.
I have so much more to say... so stay tuned... but resonate on that for a moment.
Blessings One and All!
One Perfect Love
Until that day!
The Cosmic Diva
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Accepting Dissapointment...
As Ever flowing in the Light of Jah... being led where he leads and surrendering to the righteous path, one must also accept that Jah does not impede anothers free will. With Jah there truly is no need for fear. So even though Spirit may lead you into some dark and dangerous places some deep and difficult positions... you may see dreams shattered, plans delayed, or even feel you might be lost... but you must know that you are always being tempered by the flame of enlightenment. You are being dragged kicking and screaming beyond your limitations. It is an individuals choice whether to trust the divine, or to fear the unknown. I trust without fear. This I know. Now.
I have been blessed by the most Divine contrast of late. The Contrast of Trust & Fear in personal relationships. It was amazing... in moments of complete trust in the Divinity of the Divine plan all was beautiful and light... and the signs and recognitions of that light overflowed from all directions, yes it was a glimpse of Zion. But when battling with fear either yourself or anothers... the world becomes dark, contracted, the doors that seemed open now seem closed... The path that was paved so clearly becomes confused and difficult to surmount. The heart that was open becomes cold and detached. Suddenly you see the desire to abandon that part of the path completely for it seems too difficult. Or maybe it's simply your belief that Zion truly cannot be that easy to attain. That love cannot truly be that pure and unconditional. That the battle cannot be won so easily through such a simple thing... like love and compassion, understanding and acceptance. TRUST.
I ask you this... Who is creating the difficulty? The self and the fearing mind, the mind entrenched by its conditioning... or is it JAH? Sorry folks but its no one but you. The closer I walk with spirit the more I see that all the difficulties in this life are created or perpetuated by man. It is your choice to see the path as difficult and troublesome... and surely it will be. Just as it is your choice to decide that the path will be paved by the divine and when fully immersed on the mission guided by spirit the difficulties can cease. On occasion we must accept that some difficulties are necessary for learning and clarity... but if you are willing to watch and learn quickly the difficulties can roll off your back like a splash of water.So even though there may be difficulties it is essentially our choice as to how difficult that can and will be. Well outside of those in the minds of others for as I said before Jah does not impede anyones free will. He can only hope you hear the call and have the strength to follow it. If you find yourself locked inside anothers need to make things complicated and confusing I suggest you liberate yourself.
I choose to see the path as paved before me... and sure I will meet challenges but it is my choice to make them more difficult or simple. It is my choice to cling to what I know or to cling to what I might think I want or to jump into the vast unknown with its limitless possibilities. It is my choice to fight the stream or flow with it. It is my choice to be stuck or to move forward. It is MY CHOICE to fear or to trust.
By immersing on this path I have become so close to spirit that I can hear the voice of the divine. In those difficult moments if you truly quiet the mind and listen the answer is always there, the way to proceed is always there. I will never again fight against anothers free will no matter how much I can see what is driving it. I can only try to illuminate it, it is their choice whether to see it or to let fear and conditioning cloud it. It is also their choice to claim whatever they wish to claim is guiding it. I can only follow the divine voice that speaks to me.
Life is full of dissapointments. The key to accepting them is to accept that they are not actually disappointments, they are merely signs of what is not meant to be. Maybe not meant to be at all or maybe simply not meant to be right now. I sit and reflect at the things coming to fruition now, things I began manifesting a few years back. Things along the way I wondered if they could ever manifest... and I see clearly how patience is a virtue. I could have very well abandoned it all together, dissapointed that it did not happen when I wanted it to... fearful that I was wasting my time on an impossible dream, unable to make the changes necessary to fascilitate it, but in my reflection I am ever so glad I held to the vision. Cause here I sit on the verge of a dream. In the midst of this dream I thought also that another grander dream was being fullfilled at the same time. This dream crashed heavily at my feet. Should I now let the fact that one dream shattered hold me back from manifesting the other dream... No! I truck on... ever forward towards my dreams.
For as I mentioned before the dream that is not fullfilled is not meant to be fullfilled... this is where trust is ever so important over fear. I could fear now that because I didn't get what I wanted at that moment that I should never want it again, that it will never be fulfilled, that all is lost. But with wisdom I ask myself why? Why even feed such silliness! Particularly when you are depending on another to be the fulfillment of that dream. The world has 6.5 billion people in it... Do you really think that because that person isn't the one to fascilitate that manifestation that all hope is lost? Certainly not.
So I let go of the person who could not fill the position but by no means do I let go of the impending fullfillment of that position... why... because now I am even wiser. I know now how to fine tune that dream even more to fascilitate an even greater manifestation than that one. I turn away from difficulty into the light and trust that Jah knows what is best for me and will lead me there in due time. Aaaah and one then sighs a breath of relief... so simple really isnt it. That is my choice. Over choosing to be bogged down by dissillusionmnet and dissapointment which sadly seems to be the first instinct, to curse spirit for not fullfilling my needs, I remember even asking... "Why lead me here with such promises of fullfillment and then it not be fullfilled?"... and this is where Jah enlightens me that he does not control free will... and this is somehow easiest to do though it is far from simple. Completely trapped in our battle with self over not having our needs met. Your needs will surely be met... when the time is right. Have faith. Believe. Trust. Never fear that the dream is over... for we have much time to dream between birth and death. And even in death the dream expands into a more divine dream... that is endless and bathed in light.
UNTIL THAT DAY!
The Cosmic Diva
I have been blessed by the most Divine contrast of late. The Contrast of Trust & Fear in personal relationships. It was amazing... in moments of complete trust in the Divinity of the Divine plan all was beautiful and light... and the signs and recognitions of that light overflowed from all directions, yes it was a glimpse of Zion. But when battling with fear either yourself or anothers... the world becomes dark, contracted, the doors that seemed open now seem closed... The path that was paved so clearly becomes confused and difficult to surmount. The heart that was open becomes cold and detached. Suddenly you see the desire to abandon that part of the path completely for it seems too difficult. Or maybe it's simply your belief that Zion truly cannot be that easy to attain. That love cannot truly be that pure and unconditional. That the battle cannot be won so easily through such a simple thing... like love and compassion, understanding and acceptance. TRUST.
I ask you this... Who is creating the difficulty? The self and the fearing mind, the mind entrenched by its conditioning... or is it JAH? Sorry folks but its no one but you. The closer I walk with spirit the more I see that all the difficulties in this life are created or perpetuated by man. It is your choice to see the path as difficult and troublesome... and surely it will be. Just as it is your choice to decide that the path will be paved by the divine and when fully immersed on the mission guided by spirit the difficulties can cease. On occasion we must accept that some difficulties are necessary for learning and clarity... but if you are willing to watch and learn quickly the difficulties can roll off your back like a splash of water.So even though there may be difficulties it is essentially our choice as to how difficult that can and will be. Well outside of those in the minds of others for as I said before Jah does not impede anyones free will. He can only hope you hear the call and have the strength to follow it. If you find yourself locked inside anothers need to make things complicated and confusing I suggest you liberate yourself.
I choose to see the path as paved before me... and sure I will meet challenges but it is my choice to make them more difficult or simple. It is my choice to cling to what I know or to cling to what I might think I want or to jump into the vast unknown with its limitless possibilities. It is my choice to fight the stream or flow with it. It is my choice to be stuck or to move forward. It is MY CHOICE to fear or to trust.
By immersing on this path I have become so close to spirit that I can hear the voice of the divine. In those difficult moments if you truly quiet the mind and listen the answer is always there, the way to proceed is always there. I will never again fight against anothers free will no matter how much I can see what is driving it. I can only try to illuminate it, it is their choice whether to see it or to let fear and conditioning cloud it. It is also their choice to claim whatever they wish to claim is guiding it. I can only follow the divine voice that speaks to me.
Life is full of dissapointments. The key to accepting them is to accept that they are not actually disappointments, they are merely signs of what is not meant to be. Maybe not meant to be at all or maybe simply not meant to be right now. I sit and reflect at the things coming to fruition now, things I began manifesting a few years back. Things along the way I wondered if they could ever manifest... and I see clearly how patience is a virtue. I could have very well abandoned it all together, dissapointed that it did not happen when I wanted it to... fearful that I was wasting my time on an impossible dream, unable to make the changes necessary to fascilitate it, but in my reflection I am ever so glad I held to the vision. Cause here I sit on the verge of a dream. In the midst of this dream I thought also that another grander dream was being fullfilled at the same time. This dream crashed heavily at my feet. Should I now let the fact that one dream shattered hold me back from manifesting the other dream... No! I truck on... ever forward towards my dreams.
For as I mentioned before the dream that is not fullfilled is not meant to be fullfilled... this is where trust is ever so important over fear. I could fear now that because I didn't get what I wanted at that moment that I should never want it again, that it will never be fulfilled, that all is lost. But with wisdom I ask myself why? Why even feed such silliness! Particularly when you are depending on another to be the fulfillment of that dream. The world has 6.5 billion people in it... Do you really think that because that person isn't the one to fascilitate that manifestation that all hope is lost? Certainly not.
So I let go of the person who could not fill the position but by no means do I let go of the impending fullfillment of that position... why... because now I am even wiser. I know now how to fine tune that dream even more to fascilitate an even greater manifestation than that one. I turn away from difficulty into the light and trust that Jah knows what is best for me and will lead me there in due time. Aaaah and one then sighs a breath of relief... so simple really isnt it. That is my choice. Over choosing to be bogged down by dissillusionmnet and dissapointment which sadly seems to be the first instinct, to curse spirit for not fullfilling my needs, I remember even asking... "Why lead me here with such promises of fullfillment and then it not be fullfilled?"... and this is where Jah enlightens me that he does not control free will... and this is somehow easiest to do though it is far from simple. Completely trapped in our battle with self over not having our needs met. Your needs will surely be met... when the time is right. Have faith. Believe. Trust. Never fear that the dream is over... for we have much time to dream between birth and death. And even in death the dream expands into a more divine dream... that is endless and bathed in light.
UNTIL THAT DAY!
The Cosmic Diva
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Navigating Knowing & Illusion...
This month has been hit by the planetary alignment known as Mercury in retrograde... and Ironically in alignment with that is the Mayan Lunar Moon of Challenge... So yes in the last couple weeks we have been going through some interesting challenges both within and without that are actually part of a planetary cycle. No it's not Jah or our loved ones or our bosses or the world dumping on us... it's a time for growth... we need to learn to acknowledge, prepare. and accept these times of change and growth. Rather than fight them and let them completely throw our world into a state of darkness. Put on your inner warrior and trod into the storm with all your light knowing the only way to get through it is to meet it face to face... to let it cause its destruction... knowing it will soon pass... will have washed everthing clean... and you can pick up the pieces stronger than before.
I would say my greatest lesson during this time is learning to discern the difference between illusions of the mind and knowing. When what we want is not being fullfilled as quickly as we like or is being impacted by outside forces and being delayed... This is like the minds favorite playground. Because we are not getting what we want the mind tries to tell us all sorts of things. For example... we have been abandoned by Jah or by someone because they have not fulfilled our wants at the moment we want them. We begin to consider all the possibilities and the mind immediately turns to the negative. We begin with the most negative... and continue to cycle through all the negative possibilities until often we just throw in the towel for the frustration and fear are so great. It's like torture... So the person decides... screw this torture I am done then you accept the easiest reality for letting go. Without knowing one single thing about the bigger picture in the circumstance or being willing to embrace it.
Everything we have just experienced is illusion... and we have allowed it to make us give up completely on the path to our goals and desires. Giving up because the challenge is not worth it. So we anticipated something so greatly which must show it was of some importance, and just because it wasn't fullfilled as planned... or EXPECTED... we give up and walk away... Interesting... and sad. So either we must not truly want it bad enough... or truly we are not ready. So then why should we recieve it anyway.
Now I am going to give you another option. Instead of letting yourself be driven by the world of illusion, Ask yourself this: "Are these negative thoughts helping the issue at hand? Are these negative thoughts helping me?" No darlings they are not... they are not helping anything... as a matter of fact you are giving ALL YOUR POWER at this time to manifesting a negative outcome. Almost insuring it in fact... You are putting negative energy towards the goal you are trying to achieve, and you are allowing those negative thoughts to cause you to give up... therefore creating the negative reality without one ounce of knowing.
In my recent struggle I was conscious enough to realize this. So I put on that warrior garb and convinced myself the storm will pass... and in the meantime I am going to do everything in my power to manifest a positive outcome. Though also giving space that the potential for my desire to remain unfilled was there... it was not gonna help the situation to give all my power to it. Or any for that matter. So I told myself if my desires are not fullfilled it could actually be because a greater dream is manifesting! But in the meantime I was going to direct all my strength and positivity towards freeing the situation from whatever was impacting it.
I also had to acknowledge that a greater purpose may be impacting it... Particularly because I had given my self to fullfilling Jah's plan... which means sometimes my wants do not take precedence over his works... but by fullfilling his works I will be earning the rewards of having my needs fullfilled. So instead of retreating within I kept my eyes open to my surroundings to make sure that this struggle did not happen, simply because there was something in the surroundings that needed my attention whether it be house work or needs for organizing that are before me or the fact that the struggle had put me in a place where I was supposed to help another. Something that could not happen if my goal had been fullfilled at that moment.
So yes after a long battle with myself and an strong inner struggle with the world of illusion... I mustered a smile. Accepted my reality. And focussed on my surroundings. At one point even as i tried to walk away a very important aspect of my departure was no where to be found... for example we'll say the car keys. Immediately my inner knowing said this was a sign... So I took it as a sign after looking everywhere possible for them and turned around and sat right back down... KNOWING ok THERE IS something here I am supposed to do. Within about 20 minutes a young brother lost and scared immediately walked up to me and started sharing with me... Funny his frustrations and story were similar to my own. His doubts and fears were similar to my own. And I was FORCED to sit and take in my own advice. The brother blessed me and thanked me with immense love... and had found the strength and resolve to move forward knowing he was doing the right thing and that by following his heart he could not go wrong. Better to chase your dream than to run away never knowing. That was the essence of the wisdom. It truly is amazing how much good just knowing someone else understands your situation can do. We don't have to save people with grand gestures if we are unable which sometimes causes us not to help anyone... sometimes we can do that just by empathizing with them. And guess what... suddenly I found my keys after the young man walked away. I have to wonder what impact I may have had on this young mans life... That I had to struggle for 12 hours with myself just to be available to him.
My desires are still not fullfilled at this point and I am still stuck in the land where illusions are the only answers I am getting. I get in the car and the Al Green album in the deck is song by song, line by line, word for word reading my current state. When i finally get home the desire to just give up is so powerful... so I let myself meditate and rest... and just focus all my power on the reality I wish to manifest. There is a good explanation for it all. This will all pass and all will be right with the world again. Meanwhile people are also feeding the world of illusion because they too have been caught in the trap and their reality shaped itself against their doubts. Though I KNEW in my heart that because I was walking a righteous path and those others around me were truly righteous that there could be no way that this situation was going to cause me intentional pain.
When you are righteous and those around you are TRULY righteous you are able to KNOW that they would not do anything to intentionally hurt you. To intentionally hurt is not the path of the righteous. If it does cause you pain regardless but they are righteous you must yeild to Jah's greater plan and accept the path. Let go and Let Jah. Should you discover the people around you are not righteous... then it is a sure sign that you are blessed to be free of them. Who needs people in their lives who would intentionally hurt them anyways? So why even give them your power by being consumed by the pain of their carelessness and insincerity. You have just been told clearly that JAH is making space for better things. So given you KNOW and are not just creating pain and illusion with the help of the mind... Give thanks that your sphere is released of negative beings and move forward.
If you are still trapped in the world of illusion at this point though... Keep your power focussed on the most positive outcome you can muster... as time moved on and I moved through all these things I even found myself at the point where my love was so great... that I even wanted to manifest the reality where that which I waited for was in a fun place without me. Because as I assessed all the potential negative possibilities and accepted the depth of my love... I realized that I would rather, for example, the person I was waiting for... be deterred by something exciting and fun... than be detained by something dark and treacherous.
Yes this is the beauty of unconditional love. I can't say that at times I ws overcome by a sadness that my dream was over and might never be fullfilled. I reminded myself again and again though... If Jah has chosen not to fullfill this dream... then it truly in essence may not hold the potential on its own to fullfill my dream. Yes this is the beauty of acceptance. The outcome of this entire struggle and journey in the end... because I remained positive the entire time, and made sure to stay focussed on a righteous outcome, and because I believed in and trusted the other people involved... Suddenly I was released. My people were safe, there was a valid explanation, and now through this storm our bond was stronger than ever.
Now ponder this... this process took place over three days... If you were waiting for someone let say you believed them to be the love of your life... Lets say your heart knew this but your mind because of the pain in your past refused to let you fully believe it... over the course of three days... with no word... How many of you would have gotten angry, pissed of, created drama, cried your eyes out, got deeply depressed, and created more struggle and might have completely destroyed the entire dream... simple because of the illusion of the mind? I know we have been there at least once. Just understand that when we lost that dream... a large part of it may have been of our own doing... and if we discovered a truth about a less than righteous person instead... well that was Jah looking out for our best interest. We cannot truly fullfill a divine dream if we do not fill it with all the right elements... so in some cases even the dream is an illusion because it has not been powered by the right aspects... Love, Trust, Righteousness... etc etc etc.
If you do not KNOW. Then you are only battling with ILLUSION. KNOW THAT. If you do know and discover someone has intentionally hurt you... Let go who needs that in there sphere? If you discover the reality is painful but not intentional but is driving the current dream in another direction. Embrace that support it and remember that just because the dream is not fullfilled now doesn't mean it is not to be fullfilled in the near future... remain open and do the work that needs to be done to get there. And if you discover that the entire struggle was for a greater purpose but all are still on the right path. Give thanks for the struggle reflect and grow from it in every way possible.... IT IS ALL PART OF THE PATH!
Blessings one and all!
One Perfect Love!
Until that day!
I would say my greatest lesson during this time is learning to discern the difference between illusions of the mind and knowing. When what we want is not being fullfilled as quickly as we like or is being impacted by outside forces and being delayed... This is like the minds favorite playground. Because we are not getting what we want the mind tries to tell us all sorts of things. For example... we have been abandoned by Jah or by someone because they have not fulfilled our wants at the moment we want them. We begin to consider all the possibilities and the mind immediately turns to the negative. We begin with the most negative... and continue to cycle through all the negative possibilities until often we just throw in the towel for the frustration and fear are so great. It's like torture... So the person decides... screw this torture I am done then you accept the easiest reality for letting go. Without knowing one single thing about the bigger picture in the circumstance or being willing to embrace it.
Everything we have just experienced is illusion... and we have allowed it to make us give up completely on the path to our goals and desires. Giving up because the challenge is not worth it. So we anticipated something so greatly which must show it was of some importance, and just because it wasn't fullfilled as planned... or EXPECTED... we give up and walk away... Interesting... and sad. So either we must not truly want it bad enough... or truly we are not ready. So then why should we recieve it anyway.
Now I am going to give you another option. Instead of letting yourself be driven by the world of illusion, Ask yourself this: "Are these negative thoughts helping the issue at hand? Are these negative thoughts helping me?" No darlings they are not... they are not helping anything... as a matter of fact you are giving ALL YOUR POWER at this time to manifesting a negative outcome. Almost insuring it in fact... You are putting negative energy towards the goal you are trying to achieve, and you are allowing those negative thoughts to cause you to give up... therefore creating the negative reality without one ounce of knowing.
In my recent struggle I was conscious enough to realize this. So I put on that warrior garb and convinced myself the storm will pass... and in the meantime I am going to do everything in my power to manifest a positive outcome. Though also giving space that the potential for my desire to remain unfilled was there... it was not gonna help the situation to give all my power to it. Or any for that matter. So I told myself if my desires are not fullfilled it could actually be because a greater dream is manifesting! But in the meantime I was going to direct all my strength and positivity towards freeing the situation from whatever was impacting it.
I also had to acknowledge that a greater purpose may be impacting it... Particularly because I had given my self to fullfilling Jah's plan... which means sometimes my wants do not take precedence over his works... but by fullfilling his works I will be earning the rewards of having my needs fullfilled. So instead of retreating within I kept my eyes open to my surroundings to make sure that this struggle did not happen, simply because there was something in the surroundings that needed my attention whether it be house work or needs for organizing that are before me or the fact that the struggle had put me in a place where I was supposed to help another. Something that could not happen if my goal had been fullfilled at that moment.
So yes after a long battle with myself and an strong inner struggle with the world of illusion... I mustered a smile. Accepted my reality. And focussed on my surroundings. At one point even as i tried to walk away a very important aspect of my departure was no where to be found... for example we'll say the car keys. Immediately my inner knowing said this was a sign... So I took it as a sign after looking everywhere possible for them and turned around and sat right back down... KNOWING ok THERE IS something here I am supposed to do. Within about 20 minutes a young brother lost and scared immediately walked up to me and started sharing with me... Funny his frustrations and story were similar to my own. His doubts and fears were similar to my own. And I was FORCED to sit and take in my own advice. The brother blessed me and thanked me with immense love... and had found the strength and resolve to move forward knowing he was doing the right thing and that by following his heart he could not go wrong. Better to chase your dream than to run away never knowing. That was the essence of the wisdom. It truly is amazing how much good just knowing someone else understands your situation can do. We don't have to save people with grand gestures if we are unable which sometimes causes us not to help anyone... sometimes we can do that just by empathizing with them. And guess what... suddenly I found my keys after the young man walked away. I have to wonder what impact I may have had on this young mans life... That I had to struggle for 12 hours with myself just to be available to him.
My desires are still not fullfilled at this point and I am still stuck in the land where illusions are the only answers I am getting. I get in the car and the Al Green album in the deck is song by song, line by line, word for word reading my current state. When i finally get home the desire to just give up is so powerful... so I let myself meditate and rest... and just focus all my power on the reality I wish to manifest. There is a good explanation for it all. This will all pass and all will be right with the world again. Meanwhile people are also feeding the world of illusion because they too have been caught in the trap and their reality shaped itself against their doubts. Though I KNEW in my heart that because I was walking a righteous path and those others around me were truly righteous that there could be no way that this situation was going to cause me intentional pain.
When you are righteous and those around you are TRULY righteous you are able to KNOW that they would not do anything to intentionally hurt you. To intentionally hurt is not the path of the righteous. If it does cause you pain regardless but they are righteous you must yeild to Jah's greater plan and accept the path. Let go and Let Jah. Should you discover the people around you are not righteous... then it is a sure sign that you are blessed to be free of them. Who needs people in their lives who would intentionally hurt them anyways? So why even give them your power by being consumed by the pain of their carelessness and insincerity. You have just been told clearly that JAH is making space for better things. So given you KNOW and are not just creating pain and illusion with the help of the mind... Give thanks that your sphere is released of negative beings and move forward.
If you are still trapped in the world of illusion at this point though... Keep your power focussed on the most positive outcome you can muster... as time moved on and I moved through all these things I even found myself at the point where my love was so great... that I even wanted to manifest the reality where that which I waited for was in a fun place without me. Because as I assessed all the potential negative possibilities and accepted the depth of my love... I realized that I would rather, for example, the person I was waiting for... be deterred by something exciting and fun... than be detained by something dark and treacherous.
Yes this is the beauty of unconditional love. I can't say that at times I ws overcome by a sadness that my dream was over and might never be fullfilled. I reminded myself again and again though... If Jah has chosen not to fullfill this dream... then it truly in essence may not hold the potential on its own to fullfill my dream. Yes this is the beauty of acceptance. The outcome of this entire struggle and journey in the end... because I remained positive the entire time, and made sure to stay focussed on a righteous outcome, and because I believed in and trusted the other people involved... Suddenly I was released. My people were safe, there was a valid explanation, and now through this storm our bond was stronger than ever.
Now ponder this... this process took place over three days... If you were waiting for someone let say you believed them to be the love of your life... Lets say your heart knew this but your mind because of the pain in your past refused to let you fully believe it... over the course of three days... with no word... How many of you would have gotten angry, pissed of, created drama, cried your eyes out, got deeply depressed, and created more struggle and might have completely destroyed the entire dream... simple because of the illusion of the mind? I know we have been there at least once. Just understand that when we lost that dream... a large part of it may have been of our own doing... and if we discovered a truth about a less than righteous person instead... well that was Jah looking out for our best interest. We cannot truly fullfill a divine dream if we do not fill it with all the right elements... so in some cases even the dream is an illusion because it has not been powered by the right aspects... Love, Trust, Righteousness... etc etc etc.
If you do not KNOW. Then you are only battling with ILLUSION. KNOW THAT. If you do know and discover someone has intentionally hurt you... Let go who needs that in there sphere? If you discover the reality is painful but not intentional but is driving the current dream in another direction. Embrace that support it and remember that just because the dream is not fullfilled now doesn't mean it is not to be fullfilled in the near future... remain open and do the work that needs to be done to get there. And if you discover that the entire struggle was for a greater purpose but all are still on the right path. Give thanks for the struggle reflect and grow from it in every way possible.... IT IS ALL PART OF THE PATH!
Blessings one and all!
One Perfect Love!
Until that day!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Fear is an Illusion!
Jah is like a close friend that is guiding you in the direction your supposed to go. So why would he judge you for the choices you make for truly they are in his hands. When you fight that direction this is where you get led astray this is when life becomes difficult. Life is fluid, its not static. We are conditioned to be static, and to FEAR.
We must realize that even the challenges have their purpose. There is nothing to fear. And we find ourselves learning the same lessons again and again because we refuse to learn. Every lesson we learn is like graduating... your reality graduates and you ascend to a higher dimension. This is why it's so important to be willing to look at yourself and deep within. To accept the role you play in your reality.
Because when you are of higher mind... your reality shapes itself around that. We get trapped in lower levels of thinking because we often find ourselves surrounded by the same or conditioned into it. From every direction we are bombarded with messages from the external reality, which is shaping our reality and interfering with our connection to the source. By fearing Jah and the people in your reality you begin to manifest great challenges and difficulties. I remember a time when I believed that everyone was out to use me or hurt me. Ironically in that time these were the only kinds of people that came into my life. Yet if I choose the righteous path suddenly I am surrounded by others of higher mind.
When connected to the source, and living of higher mind, you have the revelation that there truly is nothing to fear. Suddenly the world transforms and you find opportunities everywhere. You see signs and messages of the divine in everything you encounter. When you struggle with yourself. Yes lots of our struggles are created by self, if your really listening its suddenly as though a greater understanding is whispering in your ear and all is revealed. You realize "you" CAN change the world.
You can change the world by changing your world. We get so bogged down by our reality that we convince ourselves that our shrunken lives will suffice... The world is a scarey exhausting place so better to just keep to yourself. And believe me I have seen some ugly sides of humanity... and I have been attacked in various ways by people who could not understand me. So even I have found myself hiding in the woods giving up and giving in. YES this is why fear is such a powerful tool for those in control. Because collectively we are soooo powerful. The reason this world is so corrupt is cause we allow it. And we feed it. Because we are conditioned to.
When you refuse to fear... even though your mind is really working hard at making you fear... you truly start to discover... there is nothing to fear. It's a beautiful revelation.
Even now I struggle with myself... fully emerged in this mission. Yet my world is largely surrounded by righteous people. It's not about beliefs and their are many variations of belief amongst those righteous people... It's about living righteous. Just think if the entire world were full of open, caring, compassionate people. There truly would be nothing to fear. And the more people who walk righteous that do not fear... the less power those in control will have. WE pay their salaries. If we don't buy into anything that we don't agree with they have to change. Just resonate on that.
ONE PERFECT LOVE!
UNTIL THAT DAY!
Monday, August 16, 2010
Where is the love?
So in choosing to walk along this path to "that day," To give my purpose fully to fascilitating and manifesting "that day," In choosing to be a Warrior of light on this mission, In choosing to embrace my reflection of love and light... I realize I must also face the challenges it brings.
Firstly be informed that the path to these realizations and committments are faced with many barriers... many confusions... and distractions. Where the darker energy is most powerful is when we are merely seeking the light but have yet to fully come into it. If it keeps us confused and trapped in the states of lower mind it never has to fear us. So it invests its energy at just merely trying to keep us in the darkness. Though no matter how deep in the darkness we may be lost... there is always a ray of light breaking into that darkness with great effort to lead us out.
This is why I seek the light and gravitate to it. The closer we get to the light, the more we begin to see the light... we may even sometimes find ourselves asking... I see you and I am working so hard to get there... but WHY... why must it be so hard? And a Holy Man Reminds me... "Men will try to fight you down, when you see Jah light, just remember if you're not wrong, everythings alright"
Some of these struggles are the dark fight... Though we must also accept that some of these struggles are also from the light. In order to fully come into our light, to appreciate the light, and to be worthy of the power of the light and trust fully in Jah we have to reach a place where we can surrender, in order to get to this place, it sometimes take much effort and learning, this wisdom is gained through experience. I sometimes like to refer to it as gaining entry. Proving ourselves to be true to the light and worthy of its rewards.
And I am sure we all notice when surmounting the unsurmountable odds that if we show appreciation whether for the lesson or simply the fact that the lesson is over... there is a release, and it seems as though the universe opens up and we are rewarded for our hard work. Though never does the journey end so we must remain strong and prepared for the next lesson the next challenge.
I have surmounted such odd's and will never forget those moments when I truly did not know if I could go any further. The moments I begged Jah to bring me home and free me from this place. The moments so harsh that I felt the need to hide my light completely... to the point I almost lost it or even thought it had been lost. Never surrender to the darkness. Though almost magically its as though a hand reaches in at those times and pulls me right out... this is because my surrender is to the light... so I have given it the power to push me to the egde... knock me off... and catch me as I descend. It is with this knowing that I have overcome. It is with this knowing that TRUE faith is born.
So now fully emerged and firm on the path. Bathing in and transmitting light with every step I now must face a darker element. Hate. This is what emerges when the darkness knows it must now truly fight. So suddenly so full of love we seem to find ourselves met with Hate. This can be ever so baffling. For we are of love. It's almost as though it's the dark energies last stand. People doubt our intent, fear our light, create drama's and difficulties on the path, and if we let ourselves we can easily become dissilusioned. I have let this push me back into my shell many times in the past or I have let it drag me down with it finding myself standing right there mirroring the same darkness. But no more. I finally had to embrace that this is Jah's way of helping us see. As the ego longs for acceptance... the ego being a great tool of the dark... we find ourselves pulled back into the state of lower mind as though we are being picked on in high school or something.
What I see now... Is Jah is illuminated... with this energy Jah is still guiding us... not to the energy to fight for our identity... but AWAY from the dark. Turn away from the hate... and suddenly you have just turned around to be met with love.
The hate will follow you, but with strength you will begin to KNOW that this is not worthy of your time and energy. You will begin to KNOW that these people simply fear your light, and though sometimes I do make an effort to show them in some way... sometimes we must simply walk away. There will always be people who can SEE you... if you are truly able to SEE yourself. Gravitate to the reflections that remind you of your higher self. Free yourself from the reflections that keep you swimming in ego and insecurity. For in Jah's hands we are secure its much like sitting still and meditating in the eye of the storm.
Embrace the changes, embrace the challenges, break free of your conditioning, expect that our comfort zones, and stability are going to be shaken during this time... for it is the only way to become free of the false constructs that hold up this false reality... this duality. When we stumble upon pain, dig there... often our pain stems from something deeper than what we are actually confronted with. We need to dig into that pain, find the source and release it. We create our pain, we fight against change which makes us stuck and lifeless, WE can change all this... just by letting go... and letting JAH.
BLESS ONE AND ALL!
UNTIL THAT DAY!
Firstly be informed that the path to these realizations and committments are faced with many barriers... many confusions... and distractions. Where the darker energy is most powerful is when we are merely seeking the light but have yet to fully come into it. If it keeps us confused and trapped in the states of lower mind it never has to fear us. So it invests its energy at just merely trying to keep us in the darkness. Though no matter how deep in the darkness we may be lost... there is always a ray of light breaking into that darkness with great effort to lead us out.
This is why I seek the light and gravitate to it. The closer we get to the light, the more we begin to see the light... we may even sometimes find ourselves asking... I see you and I am working so hard to get there... but WHY... why must it be so hard? And a Holy Man Reminds me... "Men will try to fight you down, when you see Jah light, just remember if you're not wrong, everythings alright"
Some of these struggles are the dark fight... Though we must also accept that some of these struggles are also from the light. In order to fully come into our light, to appreciate the light, and to be worthy of the power of the light and trust fully in Jah we have to reach a place where we can surrender, in order to get to this place, it sometimes take much effort and learning, this wisdom is gained through experience. I sometimes like to refer to it as gaining entry. Proving ourselves to be true to the light and worthy of its rewards.
And I am sure we all notice when surmounting the unsurmountable odds that if we show appreciation whether for the lesson or simply the fact that the lesson is over... there is a release, and it seems as though the universe opens up and we are rewarded for our hard work. Though never does the journey end so we must remain strong and prepared for the next lesson the next challenge.
I have surmounted such odd's and will never forget those moments when I truly did not know if I could go any further. The moments I begged Jah to bring me home and free me from this place. The moments so harsh that I felt the need to hide my light completely... to the point I almost lost it or even thought it had been lost. Never surrender to the darkness. Though almost magically its as though a hand reaches in at those times and pulls me right out... this is because my surrender is to the light... so I have given it the power to push me to the egde... knock me off... and catch me as I descend. It is with this knowing that I have overcome. It is with this knowing that TRUE faith is born.
So now fully emerged and firm on the path. Bathing in and transmitting light with every step I now must face a darker element. Hate. This is what emerges when the darkness knows it must now truly fight. So suddenly so full of love we seem to find ourselves met with Hate. This can be ever so baffling. For we are of love. It's almost as though it's the dark energies last stand. People doubt our intent, fear our light, create drama's and difficulties on the path, and if we let ourselves we can easily become dissilusioned. I have let this push me back into my shell many times in the past or I have let it drag me down with it finding myself standing right there mirroring the same darkness. But no more. I finally had to embrace that this is Jah's way of helping us see. As the ego longs for acceptance... the ego being a great tool of the dark... we find ourselves pulled back into the state of lower mind as though we are being picked on in high school or something.
What I see now... Is Jah is illuminated... with this energy Jah is still guiding us... not to the energy to fight for our identity... but AWAY from the dark. Turn away from the hate... and suddenly you have just turned around to be met with love.
The hate will follow you, but with strength you will begin to KNOW that this is not worthy of your time and energy. You will begin to KNOW that these people simply fear your light, and though sometimes I do make an effort to show them in some way... sometimes we must simply walk away. There will always be people who can SEE you... if you are truly able to SEE yourself. Gravitate to the reflections that remind you of your higher self. Free yourself from the reflections that keep you swimming in ego and insecurity. For in Jah's hands we are secure its much like sitting still and meditating in the eye of the storm.
Embrace the changes, embrace the challenges, break free of your conditioning, expect that our comfort zones, and stability are going to be shaken during this time... for it is the only way to become free of the false constructs that hold up this false reality... this duality. When we stumble upon pain, dig there... often our pain stems from something deeper than what we are actually confronted with. We need to dig into that pain, find the source and release it. We create our pain, we fight against change which makes us stuck and lifeless, WE can change all this... just by letting go... and letting JAH.
BLESS ONE AND ALL!
UNTIL THAT DAY!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Love Human & Love Divine By Sri Chinmoy
I have struggled much on the path to lasting love and only recently have I fully become aware of what the fundamental problem has been. Lasting and Eternal Love only comes in the form of Divine love. Our conditioning has seperated us not only from the reality of Divine Love but even from the belief in it. And I know sooooo many of us have struggled upon this path. So I wish to share this piece with you. This should at least help you in understanding the difference, and how to achieve and accomplish the lasting love that all of us in our heart of hearts wishes to find. Love Human & Love Divine
Sri Chinmoy
Dear sisters and brothers, I wish to share with you my humble philosophy, which is based on love. We know that there are two types of love: human love and Love Divine. In human love, what we actually try to do is to possess the many without caring for the One, the Source. But if we do not possess the Source, then the many cannot be of any help to us. If there is no root, then how will the tree grow? How will we be able to claim the branches or the flowers and leaves as our very own? With the divine Love, we go first to the One, the Source, and from there we go to the many. We become one with the root, and then we grow into the tree, which will manifest itself through the branches and leaves, the flowers and fruits. Divine Love is the song of multiplicity in unity.
In human love there is demand or, at least, expectation. Very often we start with demand, and when a higher wisdom dawns we no longer demand, but still we expect something from others. We convince ourselves that this expectation is justified. Since we have done something for others- offered our love-we feel it is quite legitimate to expect something in return.
But in divine Love there is no such thing as demand or expectation. In divine Love we just give what we have and what we are. What we have and what we are is dedicated service. In the human life, before we give our love, we try to discover love in others-that is, their love for us. In the divine Life, before we give our love to others, we try to discover Love in its reality and integrality within ourselves. Only then are we in a position to offer love to others. At first our satisfaction dawns when we feel that those to whom we offer our love accept it wholeheartedly. But there is an even higher form of divine Love when we go beyond this feeling, and give love just for the sake of self giving. We give, and even if our love is not accepted, we do not mind. We shall go on giving, for we are all love, our Source is all Love.
In human love there is not only demand and expectation, but there is something even worse: withdrawal. First we demand, then we expect. When our expectation is not fulfilled, we sometimes try to withdraw from the person to whom we have offered our love. In divine Love, it is never like that. With divine Love we try to become one with the weakness, imperfection and bondage of others. Although we have inner freedom, we use this inner freedom not to lord it over others, but to become one, consciously one with their imperfections. In this way we can understand them and serve them at their own level, with a view to transforming their imperfections.
The capacity of human love is so limited that we cannot expand ourselves and totally embrace one another. There is bound to be a feeling of supremacy. I shall love you, no doubt, but I wish to remain an inch higher than you. On that condition I shall love you. The superior loves the inferior because he is satisfied to some extent with his position in this relationship. The inferior very often loves the superior because of his insecurity. So love binds them and gives them both some sense of satisfaction. But in divine Love there is no such thing as superiority and inferiority. Divine Love always gives itself freely and wholeheartedly. Divine Love gets satisfaction only by offering itself totally and unconditionally. In divine Love, we come to notice that the personal and the impersonal perfectly go together. There is a balance between the two. The personal in us enters into the vast, which is impersonal; and the impersonal in us enters into the personal to manifest its unmanifested Reality, Divinity and Immortality. In human love, the personal and the impersonal are two strangers; worse, they are at daggers drawn. The personal and the impersonal at best try to reach a compromise, but this compromise brings no satisfaction at all; in the very depth of human love, there is always a rivalry and competition between the two. On rare occasions, the personal says to the impersonal, which is inside the human being, "Let us alternate our reality, our height, our wisdom, our capacity. This moment you stand up and I shall remain seated; the next moment I shall stand up and you will sit."
In human love, very often the physical mind, the doubting mind, the suspecting mind, comes to the fore. But in divine Love, we see only the loving heart, the surrendering heart, the all beckoning heart. The mind loves a reality because it sees the reality according to its own understanding and vision. But the heart loves a reality because it sees the reality in the reality's own form. The heart becomes inseparably one with the reality, with the very existence of that reality, both inner and outer. It sees the living breath of the reality in its own form and shape; it sees the body and soul of the reality all together.
In human love, the lover and the beloved are two separate persons. The lover is running toward the beloved, and when he reaches the beloved he finds his satisfaction. In divine Love, the lover and the beloved are one and inseparable. In divine Love, the Lover is the Supreme and the Beloved is the Supreme. In human love, we feel that satisfaction lies somewhere else- not within us, but in somebody else. But in divine Love, satisfaction is found nowhere else but in ourselves. The Lover and the Beloved are one and the same-the Supreme dwelling within and the Supreme outside us. When we speak of our 'self' as the divine Lover or Beloved, we have to know that this is the 'Self' which is both the One and the many. This Self, the Supreme, finds its satisfaction only when it gets a glimpse of God's Reality, Infinity, Eternity and Immortality in the many. This 'Self' is the One, and it wants to see and feel its Reality in the many.
Love is duty. In our human life we see duty as something mechanical, lifeless, forced-something thrust upon us. But in the divine Life, duty is something full of opportunity. At every second an opportunity dawning for us to expand our life's consciousness, our life's reality, our life's delight. So in the divine Life we welcome duty, for it increases our capacity and potentiality and expands the dream of our divine, unhorizoned Reality.
Life is the lesson of Love. Love is the lesson of Life. When we study Life's lesson in our human life, the lesson is composed of fear, doubt, anxiety, worry and frustration. But in the divine Life, we see that Love is the lesson not only of Life, but also for Life-for the Life that is everlasting, ever illumining and ever fulfilling.
A divine Lover is he who believes in the divine miracle. A human miracle is something that feeds our curiosity, something that lasts for a fleeting second. But the divine miracle is the elevation of consciousness. To raise somebody else's consciousness, to raise humanity's consciousness even an iota is the true divine miracle. The conscious help the divine Lover gives to the seeker performs this divine miracle.
We are of Jah the eternal Love and we are for Jah the eternal Love. We are of Jah the infinite Love and we are for Jah the infinite Love. Eternity is the Source of the Silence life; and Infinity is the message of the sound life. From the One we came and for the many we exist. This is the real message of divine Love. We are of the One and we are for the many-the many in the One. This is the quintessence of Love Divine.
Another beautiful part of this collective manifestation... Tap into the collective vibration as we all work to manifest the reality we all desire collectively. Where Divine love is the norm, and the shackles of our conditioning become a paragraph for the history books.
The Affirmation:
ONE PERFECT LOVE!
UNTIL THAT DAY!
Change is the only constant...
So here is your choice and this choice is fundamental for the direction you will go from here... Cling to that which is lost or the simple solution... LET GO. Back in 02 I was laid off from the Corporate speel when the economy began its decent that so many more are feeling now. You know the kind of job that society has convinced us is the definition of stability. I had it all, a 2500 square foot loft in San Francisco, a 6 month old Mustang Convertible. New credit cards in the mail every month. And so many unecessary material possessions that I didnt even know if I could afford a place to fit all my things. As I reflect though I remember one question that plagued my mind frequently. I have everything I could want, Why am I not happy? That is our conditioning, we are conditioned to think that a good job and stable life and all the material possessions we desire is happiness. Then when we don't find happiness there, they have their doctors in place to give us the excuse that its actually our brain chemistry and not our actual reality that is the cause. We are being bred to live against our nature and then being fed more propaganda every day to convince us to accept it. If you can't take it then something is wrong with "you" not your reality itself. The truth is though that money could not buy me happiness and fullfillment. The harder truth is what we are conditioned to believe is the most stable existence is actually the most unstable. When you live simply and these shifts happen it is so much easier to adapt than when you are buried in debt. It is so much easier to change direction than when you are possessed by your possessions.
I watched so many people at this time sit and watch their life be stripped away bit by bit, sinking into deep depression, spinning their wheels to find a job in an empty job market, drinking their troubles away. We all see the masses finding any way to escape they can. Why does this happen on such a large scale... because people are escaping REALITY. This reality that has us all fighting our true natures.
So I chose to choose another path. I called the car dealer and said come pick up the car. I put in my notice to my landlord. I cut up all my credit cards and closed my bank account. So I screwed my credit? What is credit anyway its fake money and materialism that keeps us further trapped and enslaved to a bigger machine that is profiting off our stress. It's Money that we usually end up paying back 10 fold. Whats 500 dollars today if you really assess that that 500 dollars is gonna cost you 3000 if your not being wise.
I got rid of everything down to 7 suitcases... and I bought myself and my son a ticket out of George Bush's America. I chose South Africa so the transition would be easy for my son, and it was also a place where at the time my savings could allow me some time to rediscover myself and think about what I truly wanted to do with my life. Ever so convienent that I was also about to enter the transformative cycle known as Saturns Return. This is a time where even the universe is pushing us to evaluate our lives and where we wish to go in the next stage... It starts officially at 28 but the transition begins before hand.
This choice allowed me too look at all these changes with a new sense of anticipation and excitement. Maybe you can't fly off to Africa but you can most definitely simplify and change direction and find a place where you can sit for a moment and think about what you REALLY want from life. Maybe your tied to your possessions a house for example... Rent it out, or sell it... cause if you don't make a change and cling and push against the stream that is trying to lead you to better things you may just find yourself sitting in the same place having lost EVERYTHING. Buy an RV and simply hit the road. If you have Kids home school. Seek your place and your joy because all of this is actually happening to lead you there! Always remember that.
We are also conditioned to fill the unfullfilled void with something else that doesnt fullfill us... oh my there is a hole there just put something in it will ya! No this is not what you want to do. Have you forgotten your dreams? What you think you don't have any anymore? Well thats foolish. We all have dreams we just bury them deeper and deeper every year that we convince ourselves that we are doing the right thing by doing what we are supposed to do rather than what we truly want. We are told from an early age that our dreams are unrealistic and we should go into finance or some career that seems stable. Can I make you think for a second... How many people are paying off student loans with the career they chose? Do you know what 30 to 150,000 could be as an investment in your own dream, your own business? How many of those stable careers have collapsed since you earned your degree? So you can't find a job, have you ever thought about starting your own business? Hell mow lawns to start... oddly you might find this more fullfilling that your last job, minus the pay but it will keep your mind busy and is what I like to call building... We have to take small steps sometimes so that the universe can see we are trying... and when we recieve the recognition we begin to find doors opening, dreams making themselves known, and even better opportunities manifesting out of thin air.
This is not the time to focus on your losses. This is a time to simplify. To make dramtic changes if necessary to hold onto the light. If you want STABILITY. Find yourself a piece of land, get your own energy source or even live without energy and start growing your own food. This is the only way to truly understand freedom, independance, and stability in this ever changing world. Can't buy the land... well I know for a fact that there are thousands of places like this in America that need people to help. The Earth needs us to return to the land... and if we don't of our own accord... I have the strangest feeling that we will be forced back. Can you adapt? I can. I treasure my happiness and the happiness of those around me more than anything. With the smallest changes we can bring excitement back into our lives. Fill the void with something new and different and every step on the path where you discover the things that don't fullfill you, you are simply taking one step closer to finding the things that DO fullfill you. The Universe conspires to give you what you want... so figure out what you truly want... Focus your intent on that. And in time... you might just be shocked that you have arrived at your destination. My focus is "that day," When I have arrived. And every day I see the signs that we are getting there. And I will remain focussed and tapped into the collective manifestation of that day... UNTIL THAT DAY!
Blessings one and all!
Join in this positive Vibration!
UNTIL THAT DAY!
The Cosmic Diva
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