This month has been hit by the planetary alignment known as Mercury in retrograde... and Ironically in alignment with that is the Mayan Lunar Moon of Challenge... So yes in the last couple weeks we have been going through some interesting challenges both within and without that are actually part of a planetary cycle. No it's not Jah or our loved ones or our bosses or the world dumping on us... it's a time for growth... we need to learn to acknowledge, prepare. and accept these times of change and growth. Rather than fight them and let them completely throw our world into a state of darkness. Put on your inner warrior and trod into the storm with all your light knowing the only way to get through it is to meet it face to face... to let it cause its destruction... knowing it will soon pass... will have washed everthing clean... and you can pick up the pieces stronger than before.
I would say my greatest lesson during this time is learning to discern the difference between illusions of the mind and knowing. When what we want is not being fullfilled as quickly as we like or is being impacted by outside forces and being delayed... This is like the minds favorite playground. Because we are not getting what we want the mind tries to tell us all sorts of things. For example... we have been abandoned by Jah or by someone because they have not fulfilled our wants at the moment we want them. We begin to consider all the possibilities and the mind immediately turns to the negative. We begin with the most negative... and continue to cycle through all the negative possibilities until often we just throw in the towel for the frustration and fear are so great. It's like torture... So the person decides... screw this torture I am done then you accept the easiest reality for letting go. Without knowing one single thing about the bigger picture in the circumstance or being willing to embrace it.
Everything we have just experienced is illusion... and we have allowed it to make us give up completely on the path to our goals and desires. Giving up because the challenge is not worth it. So we anticipated something so greatly which must show it was of some importance, and just because it wasn't fullfilled as planned... or EXPECTED... we give up and walk away... Interesting... and sad. So either we must not truly want it bad enough... or truly we are not ready. So then why should we recieve it anyway.
Now I am going to give you another option. Instead of letting yourself be driven by the world of illusion, Ask yourself this: "Are these negative thoughts helping the issue at hand? Are these negative thoughts helping me?" No darlings they are not... they are not helping anything... as a matter of fact you are giving ALL YOUR POWER at this time to manifesting a negative outcome. Almost insuring it in fact... You are putting negative energy towards the goal you are trying to achieve, and you are allowing those negative thoughts to cause you to give up... therefore creating the negative reality without one ounce of knowing.
In my recent struggle I was conscious enough to realize this. So I put on that warrior garb and convinced myself the storm will pass... and in the meantime I am going to do everything in my power to manifest a positive outcome. Though also giving space that the potential for my desire to remain unfilled was there... it was not gonna help the situation to give all my power to it. Or any for that matter. So I told myself if my desires are not fullfilled it could actually be because a greater dream is manifesting! But in the meantime I was going to direct all my strength and positivity towards freeing the situation from whatever was impacting it.
I also had to acknowledge that a greater purpose may be impacting it... Particularly because I had given my self to fullfilling Jah's plan... which means sometimes my wants do not take precedence over his works... but by fullfilling his works I will be earning the rewards of having my needs fullfilled. So instead of retreating within I kept my eyes open to my surroundings to make sure that this struggle did not happen, simply because there was something in the surroundings that needed my attention whether it be house work or needs for organizing that are before me or the fact that the struggle had put me in a place where I was supposed to help another. Something that could not happen if my goal had been fullfilled at that moment.
So yes after a long battle with myself and an strong inner struggle with the world of illusion... I mustered a smile. Accepted my reality. And focussed on my surroundings. At one point even as i tried to walk away a very important aspect of my departure was no where to be found... for example we'll say the car keys. Immediately my inner knowing said this was a sign... So I took it as a sign after looking everywhere possible for them and turned around and sat right back down... KNOWING ok THERE IS something here I am supposed to do. Within about 20 minutes a young brother lost and scared immediately walked up to me and started sharing with me... Funny his frustrations and story were similar to my own. His doubts and fears were similar to my own. And I was FORCED to sit and take in my own advice. The brother blessed me and thanked me with immense love... and had found the strength and resolve to move forward knowing he was doing the right thing and that by following his heart he could not go wrong. Better to chase your dream than to run away never knowing. That was the essence of the wisdom. It truly is amazing how much good just knowing someone else understands your situation can do. We don't have to save people with grand gestures if we are unable which sometimes causes us not to help anyone... sometimes we can do that just by empathizing with them. And guess what... suddenly I found my keys after the young man walked away. I have to wonder what impact I may have had on this young mans life... That I had to struggle for 12 hours with myself just to be available to him.
My desires are still not fullfilled at this point and I am still stuck in the land where illusions are the only answers I am getting. I get in the car and the Al Green album in the deck is song by song, line by line, word for word reading my current state. When i finally get home the desire to just give up is so powerful... so I let myself meditate and rest... and just focus all my power on the reality I wish to manifest. There is a good explanation for it all. This will all pass and all will be right with the world again. Meanwhile people are also feeding the world of illusion because they too have been caught in the trap and their reality shaped itself against their doubts. Though I KNEW in my heart that because I was walking a righteous path and those others around me were truly righteous that there could be no way that this situation was going to cause me intentional pain.
When you are righteous and those around you are TRULY righteous you are able to KNOW that they would not do anything to intentionally hurt you. To intentionally hurt is not the path of the righteous. If it does cause you pain regardless but they are righteous you must yeild to Jah's greater plan and accept the path. Let go and Let Jah. Should you discover the people around you are not righteous... then it is a sure sign that you are blessed to be free of them. Who needs people in their lives who would intentionally hurt them anyways? So why even give them your power by being consumed by the pain of their carelessness and insincerity. You have just been told clearly that JAH is making space for better things. So given you KNOW and are not just creating pain and illusion with the help of the mind... Give thanks that your sphere is released of negative beings and move forward.
If you are still trapped in the world of illusion at this point though... Keep your power focussed on the most positive outcome you can muster... as time moved on and I moved through all these things I even found myself at the point where my love was so great... that I even wanted to manifest the reality where that which I waited for was in a fun place without me. Because as I assessed all the potential negative possibilities and accepted the depth of my love... I realized that I would rather, for example, the person I was waiting for... be deterred by something exciting and fun... than be detained by something dark and treacherous.
Yes this is the beauty of unconditional love. I can't say that at times I ws overcome by a sadness that my dream was over and might never be fullfilled. I reminded myself again and again though... If Jah has chosen not to fullfill this dream... then it truly in essence may not hold the potential on its own to fullfill my dream. Yes this is the beauty of acceptance. The outcome of this entire struggle and journey in the end... because I remained positive the entire time, and made sure to stay focussed on a righteous outcome, and because I believed in and trusted the other people involved... Suddenly I was released. My people were safe, there was a valid explanation, and now through this storm our bond was stronger than ever.
Now ponder this... this process took place over three days... If you were waiting for someone let say you believed them to be the love of your life... Lets say your heart knew this but your mind because of the pain in your past refused to let you fully believe it... over the course of three days... with no word... How many of you would have gotten angry, pissed of, created drama, cried your eyes out, got deeply depressed, and created more struggle and might have completely destroyed the entire dream... simple because of the illusion of the mind? I know we have been there at least once. Just understand that when we lost that dream... a large part of it may have been of our own doing... and if we discovered a truth about a less than righteous person instead... well that was Jah looking out for our best interest. We cannot truly fullfill a divine dream if we do not fill it with all the right elements... so in some cases even the dream is an illusion because it has not been powered by the right aspects... Love, Trust, Righteousness... etc etc etc.
If you do not KNOW. Then you are only battling with ILLUSION. KNOW THAT. If you do know and discover someone has intentionally hurt you... Let go who needs that in there sphere? If you discover the reality is painful but not intentional but is driving the current dream in another direction. Embrace that support it and remember that just because the dream is not fullfilled now doesn't mean it is not to be fullfilled in the near future... remain open and do the work that needs to be done to get there. And if you discover that the entire struggle was for a greater purpose but all are still on the right path. Give thanks for the struggle reflect and grow from it in every way possible.... IT IS ALL PART OF THE PATH!
Blessings one and all!
One Perfect Love!
Until that day!
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